Falling Down and Getting Back Up

Here I am again--the beginning of another year and nowhere near where I wanted to be.  The last half of 2011 was trying for me--emotionally, physically and mentally.  I was plagued with small but persistent injuries that made exercise possible only in small spurts.  Our family went through a lot of emotional turmoil.  I found myself on and off the Weight Watchers wagon.  I battled depression for a few months.  I find myself now back at 188 pounds and desperate to figure out how I can finally lose this weight.  I am struggling with guilt that despite Kim Komando's helping me to get started last year, I let her down because I didn't lose the weight I wanted to.  She was so generous in her willingness to help me and I failed.

I have found myself spiraling down into a pit of depression over my failures and now am not sure if I can do this. Am I doomed to always be overweight?  Will I ever succeed?  I want to succeed but feel like it is so far out of my grasp.

I know I have to get back up and pick up where I left off.  My health depends on it.  How I will do this, I am not sure.  I am only sure that I must figure this out.

25 Pounds--woot woot!!

Weighed in today and hit my 25 pound goal today.  So excited.  17 weeks, 25 pounds--not too bad.  I am looking forward to the next 25 pounds but I am really hoping that it doesn't take 17 weeks to get there.  Now that I am completely mobile, I would like to get back on the exercise routine and burn more calories.

My first two days back at work went pretty well all things considered.  I was painful with walking but did better than I had anticipated.  My doctor said that I can probably resume my 3 mile walks by mid-June.  By the end of June I am hoping to start training to jog/walk a 5K.

My next goal is getting to 160 pounds--here's to a lot more hard work but in the end it will be worth it all.

Back to Work I Go

Tomorrow (May 25th) I will be heading back to work after a 10 week medical leave of absence.  I am glad to be getting back to work and hoping that the increased physical activity will help me to really start to lose weight.

My last weigh in at Weight Watchers on the 20th went well--182.4 pounds now--total loss of 24.8 pounds.

I would really like to be at 160 by the end of July.

I am planning on jogging/walking a 5K in November.  I can start training at the end of June.  This will be a first for me and I am alternately excited and apprehensive.

Looking forward and never behind :-)

16 Weeks Already

16 weeks down and making progress.  I am almost at the 25 pound mark.  People are noticing my weight loss and I am already needing to buy new pants again.  I am off crutches and out of my foot boot and starting to walk more on my foot.  Physical therapy is going well and I am gaining more strength in my foot every day.  It feel so good to see progress even if my weight hasn't changed much in the past few weeks.  I feel stronger and that is what is important.  My husband found a really cool website that takes a current picture of you and then allows you to input your goal weight and it actually changes your picture to show what you would look like at your goal weight.  The pictures I have posted in this weeks blog post is from that site.  My current weight is 185.  My goal weight is 130.  I printed the pictures and posted them by the computer so I can look every day and be reminded of where I am going.  I need to keep this in sight so I don't lose focus and get discouraged.  Plugging away at the weight and getting healthier.  My blood pressure is normal and I am only taking one blood pressure medication now.  Still working on always making healthy choices but doing better.  I am trying hard to get myself ready to return to work now.  I have to get my foot back in shape so I can return to work at the end of the month.  I am looking forward to being able to exercise again and start training to walk/jog a 5k in the fall.  I would love, love, love to be at goal weight for Christmas--7 months away--8 pounds a month--2 pounds a week--I can do this--I must do this--continuing the journey...........

Nearing the 16 Week Mark

Friday the 13th of May will mark the beginning of my 16th week on Weight Watchers.  I am almost to 25 pounds lost--hoping to reach that on Friday.  People are starting to notice my weight loss now and I have to say it feels good to have people notice.It's nice to put on something and have it fit better.  I took some measurements the other day--my waist is at 37 inches--I started out at 46 inches I think--that's a big loss.  I was feeling pretty discouraged about the slow-down in poundage loss but after measuring, I realize that I may have gained some muscle from the core work I have been doing.  YAY!!

Where Did Last Week Go??

In all of the hubbub of last week, I never made it over here to update things.  Holidays are always so busy.

Last Friday at Weight Watchers, I gained 0.6 pounds (PMS sucks) but all things considered, not too bad.

I started physical therapy last week--talk about hard work.  I have lost a lot of strength in my right foot and we are working on helping me to regain strength and mobility.  Lot's of exercises for not only my foot, but my legs and my core and my shoulders.  When you walk with crutches for almost 2 months, everything heads south.  This is gonna be hard work, but it's good hard work because it will help me get back to work at the hospital.

One of the exercises I  have to do involves picking up marbles with my toes and depositing them into a bowl.  Well, my cats think that these marbles are new toys for them and unless I hide the marbles, they are attempting to roll them everywhere.  Pretty funny.

It feels good to be able to do something more proactive in my recovery process.  I am looking forward to showing my physical therapist next week how well I have done on improving strength and  range of motion with the exercises she has given me.

Time to go make dinner.

See you Friday!

20 Pounds--Wahoo!!!!

I weighed in at 187 lbs at Weight Watchers yesterday!!!  I hit my 10% goal and my 20 pound goal on the same day.  I had a really terrible week food wise--had difficulty even wanting to track points and one day was a total bust point wise.  I completely expected a gain so a loss of a pound was pretty sweet and to meet those first two goals was great as well.

I figured out that part of my difficulty is boredom being home and part is feeling mildly depressed because of the wet, cold Oregon weather.  I eat when I'm bored and I eat when I'm depressed.  I am working on figuring out the solution.

So my next goal is 160 lbs.  I would love to be there by my 49th birthday on August 18th--4 months, 27 pounds--a little less than 7 pounds a month--might be a little ambitious but I am hoping that once I get off these crutches and can start exercising again I will lose closer to 2 pounds a week instead of the pound a week I am currently losing.

Please heal up foot!!