Here I am again--the beginning of another year and nowhere near where I wanted to be. The last half of 2011 was trying for me--emotionally, physically and mentally. I was plagued with small but persistent injuries that made exercise possible only in small spurts. Our family went through a lot of emotional turmoil. I found myself on and off the Weight Watchers wagon. I battled depression for a few months. I find myself now back at 188 pounds and desperate to figure out how I can finally lose this weight. I am struggling with guilt that despite Kim Komando's helping me to get started last year, I let her down because I didn't lose the weight I wanted to. She was so generous in her willingness to help me and I failed.
I have found myself spiraling down into a pit of depression over my failures and now am not sure if I can do this. Am I doomed to always be overweight? Will I ever succeed? I want to succeed but feel like it is so far out of my grasp.
I know I have to get back up and pick up where I left off. My health depends on it. How I will do this, I am not sure. I am only sure that I must figure this out.
